Chapterss of her Life..

2012-01-08T22:14:00.002+08:00

Welcome to 2012 . Its a new year and new chapter to begin .

Well , my countdown doesnt sound very impressive but a boring one instead .

I still managed to celebrate but very pathetic one .

Went to Boon Lay , celebrate with big sister and second sister . Not to forget kak Nadiah .

I get to watch a glimpse of fireworks . Its doenst make me happy but was stunt abit .

Flashing back on 2011 countdown . Sad , yah very very sad .

I wished i could repeat that moment again .

Life didnt go very well . Too many things to cope .

I have yet to go along way to endure in whatever things happen lately .

I wish i was strong but as day pass , im not strong enough .

I wanted mum to be ok .

I wanted my uncle to recover .

I wanted him to know how much i love him till now .

But i dnt have the courage to do so .

I miss my exboyfriend . So much . And i dont think he knows that .

Crying doesnt solve any problems .

I just didnt know what else to do to my life . Hoping for him to come back doesnt

sound right at all . I knew that . At the end of the day , i know we cant be together.

haiz . I should just forget about all those moments .

2011-11-20T00:23:00.002+08:00

I have been hurt many times . I didnt know the last time i was hurt bring me

to this part of time whereby i cant stop hoping until now . I learnt , i changed and

thanks to my past . But i realised that hoping wont make me happy . I will eventually ended

up wasted . I have been waiting for the past 7 months . I put my head low , avoiding myself

from my friends , guys . In fact i put more effort in my job instead . I focused , i tried to

forget bit by bit of our memories . I failed .

Seriously , i failed . But this time i dont wanna fail .

I will put my head high , look at my future and moved on .

I have seen how i am when he first left me . I was stuck , i cried , i was

like torn into pieces . But by leaving me , make so many changes . And i thank god

for realising that . Im happy now , i love my family , i love my jobs .

I never stop smilling ever since then and thats is enough for me .

2011-10-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

Oh heylo peeps . Finally updated . Heh .

Nex , im leaving them . Was being transferred to Causeway Point .

My last day of work at Nex was on last Monday . I feel sad . Seriously .

It was way different . The feeling of leaving them really sucks big time .

I almost cried . But i tried not to . I have to be strong . Who knows ,

my life will be much better at Causeway Point . And since Nex cant do it better .

Its not that Nex cant do it . They just have their own attitude which i think each of

them cannot control . Whatever .

But i miss them . Miss them alot than ever . Especially Andy .

He was a good boss . He understand me better than anyone else would .

He knows i got alot of MCs but he still support me . Alot .

I feel bad leaving him actually . I guess , im better off at causeway point since i think

its more convenient for me .

Talking about Causeway Point outlet . Hmm , Im not happy there .

That is the truth ; in fact my mind was thinking about Nex all the time .

No lying . I wished, i still could change my mind . Its too late . Aint it ?

Whats the point ..

I wanted to see the best in nex .

I may not be happy at causeway point , but its better rather than having quarrel about

schedule at nex .

haizz .. No morev riders , no more irritating chefs , no more friendly staff . I miss them .

I cant believe that i cried typing this . =(

IMISSNEXPASTAMANIAALOT! <3

2011-09-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

I didnt mean to break guys heart , but how can i force myself when

im not into it at all . You know , the limitation of falling in love last time

might be 70% to 98% . But now , i cant fall in love .

I just wanna have someone to be there when im in need . Someone , but only

as a friend . No more than that . It turns out that

guys are putting high hopes on me . Errrr , did i make the wrong move ?

I thought i already explained so much about myself and how did i ended up

like this ? I feel bad ignoring , but at the same time , i cant force .

Its better to be unexplained and let them think that im a BASTARD . So called .

Though , im not . =/

Careers , well , It really put me to high risk of stress mode .

Current emotions : DEPRESSION .

Seriously , I dont know what i really want .

I dont know what actually i want to achieve in life .

Actually i do , i use to think that i gonna succeed .

Succeed in seeing myself as a childcare teachers . But what do i have now ?

Just a nitec certificate ? How to ?

Haizzz ... !!!

2011-09-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

What did i do to deserve all this ? I done my best to prove that i can do better

than last time . Im putting so much effort to focus on my current job .

Eventhough my current job doesnt give much income . Still , i put it much effort

than before . I work so hard , i give all my time to work .

I didnt even have time to spent with my family and all i get is

just a SERVICE CREW after a long time working .

But to others , which is just one month , 2 or 3 times work , can get a CL .

WTF . I gave up . My heart been hurt so much .

When i decided to leave , my boss encouraged me to stay .

I almost changed my mind . I did planned to stay .

But this morning incident really disappoint me so much .

I guess that person shouldnt be promoted to CL . Im not trying

to say that im better than her . Like wth , her status in that outlet is

just CL , not MANAGER . I was like dying , getting an asthma attack ,

trying to control my astamatic condition , but there you are asking me why i didnt do

my job ? Fcuk you .I did my job . And im still busy topping up .

She make an issue because i didnt top up all those that i supposed to do .

Aww , too bad . She is not the manager to decide .

A person like this still exist ? WTF . ehh , status kau tak sebesar mane .

Jangan suruh aku buat benda yang aku tak patut buat . FUCK YOU !

2011-09-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

First thing first ..

Its ramadhan month , and yah , SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all the muslim people .

I hope everyone are enjoying though i aware that this year raya was a bit boring or

maybe no effect at all .

As for me , every year was the same .

I dont feel happy nor sad . Just a broken smile girl . Thats it .

Previously , i know a guy . Well , i knew from the start he was a jerk .

He told me he will give me love more than how my ex did . But sadly ,

i dont feel anything for him .

He is irritating . Irritating bastard . Im not trying to be rude but its the fact .

He is trying to be like my ex . Trying to win my heart just by being him .

I dont need someone to win my heart to be like my ex .

Why cant you just be yourself ? Isnt it simple ?

Even if you be yourself , i wont fall for you . Because my heart was locked

ever since my ex left me . He didnt understand me .He keep forcing .

It was weird when he told me , he fall for me . Not even a week that we contacted .

Ouh , thats normal for a malay guy . Standard , they are looking for LOOKS .

And i just ignore him . Messages , calls .. everything . You know it feels silence but

its worth it . Im used to it . Even until now .

Nobody gonna change that until i met the right guy .

2011-08-11T23:46:00.002+08:00

Life wasnt back to my normal yet . Im still that girl which still live with my past .

Past that im not able to let go . Thats what im going through now .

Though i might not be longing and hoping , but the memories are still there .

Still playing and never stop . I dont know why .

I miss him , i miss every single thing that i went through with him .

Haizz .

He had forgotten about me , i know . But nvm . We are not fated .

My heart is still broken , and still not ready to be fixed . I would rather stay like this .

Im more happier without love . Im pulling myself to stand up

and change myself to a better person . I will assure that . =))

2011-07-13T18:24:00.002+08:00

Life wasnt as easy as i thought . I thought im over it , but im not .

Im seriously am not able to get over it . Tell me how ?

I still cried when i think of him . When i think of memories , when everything went wrong ,

i think all about him . I miss him , i really do . I dont know how to get him out

of my mind . Seriously i dont know . I cant find the real answer in my heart .

When someone tried to win my heart , i cant . My heart ws totally locked after he left me .

2011-06-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

Am i in the wrong ? Why every each one that i treasure , love so much just gone from

my life . I dont know who to turn to now . Its just like my own world .

The only place that i run from my fcuking problem is just working . I gain my

hapiness from there . Nobody understand . Im done with all this shit . Crying silently , no one knows how painful it is that im trying to pull myself up again .

Beautiful Friends just fcuk my life up and down .

Love , had gone long ago . No trust in it anymore .

Family , haiz . No one cares to know about me . I tried to ,

but no one cares . They are just making me stressed . I feel

like running away . Goshh , i left with only one person

that is always there for me , but she left me too .

I dont trust her . She just ... haiz .

Im just too fcuk up with this life . Damn . Fcuk my life .

Idah , you got to be strong this time . smilee . =)

2011-06-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

As day passes , i begin to accept every single thing that happen in my life .

Be it sweet or bitter , im still standing strong . No one can make me fall this time . Im

making myself up straight , work for my perfection . Thats it !

Maybe there is someone out there trying to pull myself down , pulling me apart , but bitch ,

sorry , im over it . And karma plays better horr . So just beware .

Its not the end yet . God sees everything . You will get your retributions soon dear .

I got mine , and its enough for me to feel it . And i learnt from my mistake .

Woohoo , Now its about my life .

My life is just about me , family , colleague and my one and only happiness .

Well , i didnt contact any guys now . Not a single one . Reason , im done with all this .

No love for now . Its totally broken into pieces . And i bet it takes a long time to heal .

So , NO for love horr . =))

2011-06-06T02:14:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA , i just cant stop laughing because you lied to me , because

you played with my feeling . Ehh hello ? Im not stupid .

Been there , done that .Guys look so good , pretending to be like " sweet " and says

that " i will never do that "

FCUK YOU ! .

I already know this earlier on . Its just that i pretending like

i know nothing . So as to see how far can you pretend .

But it looks like your true colours are out. wow . Amazing right .

A guy which told me that " we are just friend " , which told me that

" i didnt mean to hurt you " , " i swear we got nothing on " ... What the hell is this ?

All this bullshit la . I learn from guys , so no need to tell me to make me feel alright .

To make me feel as though you still love me .I may not be that girl that you use to pampered me ,

that you used to love me . Im a strong girl , which dont want to fall for guys trap .

So thank you . I once fall for your trap , no second time . OVERRRR ~

2011-06-04T00:57:00.002+08:00

I managed to forget you . Because there's someone out there could make

me forget you . But unfortunately , the memories is still my head .

I thought i already over it , maybe i did . Not everything . I almost cried

thinking of past . How i wished i could just get over it . I wished i could

turn back time . Haiiyaa . No worries . Im still that girl that is strong enough .

Been there , done that . Fact , i stop loving you the day when you told me

you didnt love me anymore . Thanks for breaking my heart . Still appreciate

every single thing you did . =))

Jobs , was fine though . Woots~ OT baybehh !

Full shift for almost everyday ! Gosh , crazy girl ! haaa .

Its for my next month celebration horr . Im still thinking

what should i do for my birthdayy ... hmmmm ~

Nahh , i think i will be working on that day .

Thinking about my birthday , every year , sucks big time !

2011-05-30T00:41:00.002+08:00

Been busy working for the past four days . Woots~

Im too busy now . Somehow i dont feel like going home .

Cause my first priority is my family and second ,my pastamania nex family .

They make my life bright . Only them , that can make me smile and laugh all day . Woohoo ~

Now im no longer missing , or thinking about him . Im totally over it .

Thanks to work and family of course .

Yesterday someone send me home . ahaa ! Gosh , so the paiseh ride his bike .

hmm , but nah , he is just a friend . Not more .

Im not thinking of relationship or love . Hell no wayy okay !

Got to sleep early . Tomorrow morning shift! toodless~

2011-05-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

Im fine now . Perfectly fine without him . No more crying , no more thinking .

Maybe abit , but soon everything gonna fade . And no more thinking about that .

Been there , done that . Though sometimes i do misses him, but its usual .

2weeks already . No more messages from him . No more chatting with him . Good .

Getting over it soon . =)

2011-05-21T16:37:00.003+08:00

The feeling of fade is already there . But i dont know why , somehow , when i

was left alone , i will cry helplessly .

Its hard , but im still strong to let it go . Looking how happy he is now ,

its just making me feel better when actually it hurts so much .

Confusion , stressed , heartbroken .. everything stuffed in my head .

When i was still with him , i use to think " what will i be without him ? "

Now i see myself without him . Its hard . Totally hard . Imagining without him . Without

going out every saturday with him . No more meet up late at night . No more riding dirty .

No more songs he sang for me . No more food that he use to buy when im hungry .

Hurts ~ But hey , i have to let go and accept it . Im used to it when i was with him .

But now , its like nothing . Every single thing waste . I know where my mistake was , but its ok .

People do make mistake . And i learn from that .

2011-05-15T15:20:00.002+08:00

I dont pick up calls from guys , i dont entertain messages from guys

which trying to get closer to me acting like they care when they actually dont .

They are just looking for opportunity to contact me . * FUCK YOU *

I'm not going to be a fool wasting my time talking and chit chatting .

I really treasure my time , i gonna make myself straight , move on and stand with my own feet .

Though it hurts so much till now , its just not worth it to think everyday .

Im getting over him soon . SOON . I will assure that .

Mum's asked about me and him .

What happen and all .

After hearing my stories , i didnt realise that she cried .

I ddint cry but it breaks my heart more to see my mum's crying .

I feel like crying but i tried to be strong . Its enough that all my tears cried

for him but he just didnt care . So what's the point .

2011-05-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

How stupid of me to fall into this trap .

You say you can't be with me but you want me back .

We stay unofficial as still do what we do .

So that at the end of the day , you can go with her too .

The thought of losing you kills me inside .

I just go with it and my truth feelings i hide .

See i love you so much . Any piece of you I'd take .

Eventhough it seem you only want me for the love we make .

Anything you ask , i would always do .

Because seeing you happy make me happy too .

Now i'm feeling used , lonely and empty inside .

Thinking of all your promises and knowing you lied .

It hurts so bad i cant take it anymore .

But you'll realise what you had when i walked out that door .

See i'm done going along with your stupid game .

I now realise you'll always be the same .

I no longer blind and can finally see .

That the man that i want you obviously can't be .

So now i'm done with it all and you are free .

I always put you first but now im focusing of me.

2011-05-12T13:49:00.000+08:00

Im getting up from my fcuking bad dreams . Seriously no more looking back .
It gonna make me worse . Thinking that he is serious about everything , but he was not , so ... all this time , its such a waste of my time . Looking at him happy and smile is all i wanted to .. let him go and move on . Sooner or later ... i will definitely managed to move on without him . Thinking that im better off without him . So i gonna make it possible . Though it hurts alot , i know i still can do it . =')

2011-05-11T11:25:00.003+08:00

It was an unforgettable memories being with him for 4 months .
I may not be the best for him throughout the relationship with him ,
but i already did my best to change myself . He was a nice guy .
I never ever found any other guy that is nice guy , that is caring , that
prove to me how much he love me until i found him .
Though we are over , he still stays in my heart .
He is wonderful in every way . In my eyes , he was the perfect
guy . I made the wrong mistake that night , but its ok .
I learnt from it , and now its time to move on like i used to.
I hide my sadnes , i hide my tears . No one knows how much it hurts me
without him in my life . He was the best . Only gods know how much i
lovehim , how much i misses him .
Every night before i went to sleep , i prayed for his happiness .
I prayed for his safety for wherever he go . I will do it until
i move on and realise that he is nowhere now in my life .
I love him sincerely and i left him sicerely . =')

2011-05-08T09:54:00.002+08:00

Crying like hell since yesterday . I cant get myself to sleep since

yesterday night . I keep on crying thinking and hoping

that its gonna be ok , but its not . Im trying my best to

forget him , to move on like i used to . But it seems so hard

now then usual .

He was the best in my heart , and i never ever

hated him for hurting me . I always love him like i used to till my last beat .

He meant so much to me , and no other guys ever done so much for me .

Sufian , the guy that im proud to have him as my one and only .

I never ever failed to miss him , to think about him . Every night , before i went to slip,

every morning , the first thing when i wakes up , he was the first to enter in my mind .

Am i stupid ? He told me to move on , whereby in my heart i still wanna fix this relationship.

Break up because of just simple things . Haizz . Im still crying like a small girl .

I got to wake up , i got to accept the facts now.

I left my job , my meal aside just because i cooped up in my room

the whole of yesterday and today .

I still cant get myself to forget all those memories that i had with him .

haizzz...

2011-05-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

Been enjoying for the past few days . I really had fun with love and friends .

Went to ice skating at kallang leisure park . But without boyfriend . Sad !

Cause he was on holiday . But at night boyfriend came and watch movie with us .

Gosh , i had fun the whole day .

The next day , went to seoul garden and plus karaoke . Woo hoo .

I love it baybey ! And i love boyfriend too !

Surgery was changed to 10 of june . -___-

Fcuk shit , when the doctor told me how he is going to

remove that lump , my whole body felt so weak .

I didnt really talk after the appointment . My mind was filled with

wild imaginations . And im relieved that its on next month .

So no hurry . haizz .

But soon when the day is coming , i will feel so weak again . shit !

I got to be strong . haiyaaaa ! * stress mode *

2011-04-27T19:08:00.001+08:00

Got many things to do the past few days .

And now , its time to relax babe ! Woohoo .

I had a long day the past two days . Gosh , tiring ..

Hmm , but i gave up . No more going back to that place please .

I gonna stick with my current job . My all time , PASTAMANIA . Hee .

Thats my routine. =))

My day is coming soon . The day that i wish it wouldnt come .

SURGERY . Goshh , im scared . But i got to be brave .

Prayed hard . Hopefully everything gonna be alright .

-__-

2011-04-20T19:33:00.001+08:00

Been busy nowadays . With works , friends , relationships .

All kinds of things that came in my mind is making me a busier woman .

Because , im like going through a life full of shits .

Fcuk my life .

I dont know whats going on my mind now .

Relationships , works , family's problem . Walauweeiii ...

Stresss derrrr ...................

2011-04-15T19:19:00.002+08:00

My day starts with an awesome one ! Wooohooo .

Im working in the morning . Doing opening .

Damn , hate doing morning because at one time ,

when you reach your working place , there's a note

for you to do . -___-

But loves going home earlyy ... heheheehee .

Thats is my only favourite part .

Ended work at 4pm . Quickly change and waited for Gabriel .

Walk with him till the MRT .

Hate taking bus at Little Indiaa . Shit man !

Somemore its peak hour . haiyaaa . Irrits siaa .

Raining at bukit panjang , called mummy to fetch me . hehe .

Pampered daughter .

Check my email .

And this is what i got .

Sorry , your application was unsuccessful . -_______-'

Damn you . Nevermind , i will find full time job now . =)

2011-04-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

Thought people say trust is important in relationship ?

But dont seem to trust him no more .

I trust only myself .

Too many things , but still holding on .

Still waiting for the right time .

No tears , because its a waste of time .

Mad , it only make everything worse .

Laugh , yes . To make myself feel better .

But hell inside my heart .

2011-04-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

Im on mc today . Well , throat hurts . Bad cough .

Wtf , its getting worse . I want to get well soon . Pls .

I need to work . Goshh , please ! Get well soon .

Sometimes , i wonder ,why now ?

When i got someone new , when i got someone

who can make me happy , when im already

happy with my love ones , and here you are searching

for me , sending me all kind of messages .

Telling me how much you miss me and expecting to

get a call or message from me .

Unexpected , but yah it happens .

Guess the only thing is , move on .

I didnt hurt you . You are .

You told me to move on , and yes i am .

But at your position , you know you cant do it .

So why regret now ? You know its too late .

I mean it . LATE .

I dont have to explain why , but you got the answer there in your heart .

2011-04-10T21:28:00.004+08:00

Goshhh ! Still feel tired . Because of medicines . Shit !

I havent get my sleep yet since i came back from meeting boyfriend .

Boyfriend already snoring like a pig . -__-

I still got bad cough and flu . wth .

I must get well soon .

Well , bad news , i wasnt shortlisted for school .

Damn . But nahh , im fine .

Now its time to focused on full time job . For the mean time ,

i will stick with my part - time job. So ya , i will work hard for full-time job .

Arghhhh !! Stresss .

Tomorrow i will be working morning shift .

So i have to be in beed by 11 pm .

I know thats impossible . Will try .

heee .

Oklahh peeps , i got to go now .

Wanna have a nap . toodless~

2011-04-10T02:53:00.002+08:00

SHAGGED !

TIRED , SLEEPY , HEAD SPINNING !

BAD COUGH , FLU !

WHOLE BODY WEAK !

2011-04-06T20:41:00.004+08:00

jingwen n me

huipeng and me .

cineleisure girls =p

One big family of cineleisure=))

another one of cineleisure family .

Last but not list , serangoon , nex new outlet family .

Those pictures was taken at Meritus Mandarin Hotel , pastamania Dinner and Dance 2011 .

I had so much fun with the cineleisure family .

I kinda miss them alot .

Yesterday , everyone was awesome .

Beautiful make-ups and dress worn by the girls ..

And Smart jacket or coat worn by the guyss ..

Thumbs-up!

Some of them were drunk . haa .

But not me , obviously.

Took many pictures with cineleisure family .

Especially the girls .

Theme: Casino Royale . Wooohhooooo ...

Of course each of everyone dress up like princess and handsome guyss .

Came there took cab but went home took bus . Terbalek liao . Haha .

Boyfriend couldnt fetch me but not because he busy , but because he is sleeping at home

like a pig . -___- .

My mind was like shit ! How am i going to catch my bus ..

But still, i did it .

Boyfriend waited under my blk just to look at me how i dress up .

Okay , shy . ^^

He told me , he liked it the way i am ,yesterday .

Awesomee bby !

Gave me points . 10/10 ..

Wowww! Iloveyouu baby !

But today aint chilling with boyfriend like usual .

Only for 45 mins . -_-

Boyfriend going for a date liao . With his friends .

Well , standard . LADIES NIGHT .

Actually because they are celebrating their friends birthday .

So let it be .

TRUST is important .

I got to be strong . And put trust on him .

I miss him already . ='(

2011-04-05T10:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday spent time with my girlfriends . Awww... i love them so much .

They make my day . Its been a long time since we are like this .

Now , we are one together again . Wooohhhoooo ...

I went for school interview yesterday .

Errmm , chances are , i wont be chosen . Comfirm .

Because i got a very bad attendance at school last two years .-___-

Damn ! Should have study hard and not been playing truancy seiii !

*regret*

After interview , meet up with lala and mia at chua chu kang .

Chilling around and chill at my house .

My house was the best part .

Free show of naked bodaysss... hahaha .

Trying out dresses one by one .

Doing manicure . ahaha

And many things .

At night meet up with boyfriend .

Doing some thing to my lappy .

Have our usual chit-chat .

But wwhen boyfriend talk about something ,

my mind was like . Fcuking shit !

I hate it okay . Feel like shouting to him and stop saying

about that . Feel like walk off . Haizz .

Mind corrupted . -__-

2011-04-03T16:58:00.003+08:00

What a tiring day at work yesterday . I totally shagged .

My mind was like " gosh , when its going to be 11 pm ~"

I didnt expect being a runner are really tiring especially on weekends .

And with a new outlet , too many things to remember . -__-

Oklahh , at least i learn new things , new method . huhuhu .

I have to guide along with the new trainees . Goshh , too tired .

But somehowv , someone really make my day .

And thats is my boyfriend.

He suprise me by fetching me at Nex ! Arghhhh . Gosh , im shocked

to see him there .

Because i know he is tired . Didnt expect though .

Awwww , i love him so much ..

Today , resting day . My off day .

Tomorrow will be my nervous day .

Im going for school interview ! Pray hard !

After that , headed to work . As usual .

I gonna be busy very very soon !!!

2011-04-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

Shagged . Thats how i feel since yesterday .

Since i stop working , i guess last month , i begin to rot at home .

Yesterday , came back to work . Got staff meeting for launching

new outlet at nex , serangoon .

Been busy since yesterday , and this morning was our first day .

Well , not much prepared so kind of a mess . But overall , superb .

I love working with my colleague.
You know its such a waste if i resign . 1 year of experience at

pastamania . And i learn alot from it .

Schools , yeah . I got a call from ite college west .

I will be going for interview in admin courses this coming monday .

Not prepared , though .

But what to do , im going for it .

Prayed hard pleassse .. .

Im dying to go back to school .

I wanna continue study and everything .

But if i failed , nahh , im fine .

I still got mt job .

Imissmyboyfriend . =D

2011-03-29T13:43:00.002+08:00

"True love will never fade unless it was a lie"

Sometimes , i start to wonder . Is it true ?

Or am i just dreaming ?

I dont know , speechless .

My mind was corrupted with every little things .

That little things causes me to think so much .

Friends , told me ... " He dont look like he loves you "

If he's not , why must he go on ?

I mean , its hurting me further .

Or she is just trying to pull me apart ?

Would friend to that ?haiz .

2011-03-29T01:08:00.002+08:00

We had a talk . Everything is fine now . Alhamdullilahh .

I was nervous . The feeling of giving up , feeling of changing my mind ,

i felt so so damn nervous . Its like , i dont want to have a talk .

I dont want to hear his explanation . My whole body felt so weak .

My mind corrupted . -__-

Still , i telling myself that its going to be ok .

Here we are , still going on .

Im glad the epic is over . Woahhh .

Im relieved now . =)

2011-03-25T11:40:00.002+08:00

It hurts alot thinking that we are going on our own way .

Stupid , im so stupid.

If i were to cry and hoping that we are going to be ok , its not .

I know its not .

But i pray hard that he will realise .

The silence hurts me .

The message he sent me , hurts me .

The ignorance from him , totally hurts me .

Its like one mistake , and then his gone .

I dont know , did i do wrong ?

Why at that point of time when he make a mistake ,

he apologise to me just once , and thats it . I forgive him .

But When i was the one doing mistake , he didnt even forgive me no

matter how hard i tried .

Was it my fault ?

I didnt played with his feeling .

I didnt even dare to cause i love him .

The only mistake of mine , stopping him

from those thing that i dont like ...

Is it wrong to do so .. ? Even if i dont like,

he already done it .

Still i was the one that give in .. I was the one ended up

telling him im sorry for millions of time .

Its like no use . speechless . Am i selfish ?

I dont know . Perhaps i am .

Im not ready to let go . But i have to .

2011-03-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Can you tell me where did it go wrong ?

You Replied all those comments at facebook but not my messages ?

It hurts me alot . Alot then ever .

But i tried my best not to be mad .

Crying helplessly is all i do now .

Where is the old eu that i use to know ... haizz

2011-03-24T21:23:00.003+08:00

Crying helplessly like i never did before .

I dont know , is it my fault or his fault ? am i so irritating ?

Or maybe i just couldnt understand him more better .

i dont know . haiz .

No mood . ='(

2011-03-23T01:23:00.002+08:00

Meet up with boyfriend .

Boyfriend finishess work at 11 pm and he came here to meet me .

Awww , so sweet . Usually tuesday will be a tiring day for him

cause he had to wake up early every tuesday to go work .

But today , abit different .

He really make my day today .

Gosh , im getting sick of rotting at home .

I wanna work .

Im still waiting for their call .

Praying hard !

Pleease i need a job to kill my boredom and

i need cash to pay everything .

Everyday , using lappy ,play games ... wth .

Getting bored of it . -___-

Ok readers , i need to get to sleep now .

nytes .

2011-03-20T19:57:00.002+08:00

I kinda pissed off . Fcuk it laa .

At this time like this , my fcuking attitude starts again .

Wtf . I feel like crying . I feel like giving up .

I feel like leaving Argggghhhh !!

Giving me hope over and over again . cb laa .

No point letting out , because im sure it will mess my whole

relationship . haizz.

Why at this point of time , he had to do his work

and everything ? wth . Cant anybody replace him or what ?

I was like excited to spend time . Arghh , fcuk la .

I hate it . Stupid laa .

Its like happening to my past .

cb . im off now !

2011-03-20T03:29:00.002+08:00

Heyy , as usual , on saturday will be "ours" outing .

Doesnt matter went out with who , but still we are together . =))

Boyfriend fetch me , told me we are going chalet . With his bike friends .

Ok , did have fun . But my intention was being spending time just

the both of us .

Nahh , its fine with me .

As long as boyfriend still with me , im ok with it .

Laugh here and there with his friend .

They make my day a happy one today .

And a tiring day for me .

Slacked under my block for awhile with him .

Chit chatting .

Boyfriend worried just because i didnt want to eat .

Bought for me something and eat with him .

After that send me home .

i love him , yes i do .

Im fortunate enough to have him as my guy .

I got a SWEET boyfriend ! Goshh , im in love with my boyfriend .

Gdnyte readers . Sweet dreamzz ..

Signing off . Toodless ~

2011-03-18T19:53:00.002+08:00

Okayy , bored to death now . -___-

I guess boyfriend is sleeping .

gOsh , im damn bored now . Got nothing to do leii ....

Well , i already resigned from pastamania .

Just now went to outlet to sign my resignation form .

I kinda miss them alot .

Sometimes , i dont feel like resigning from there .

Its been a year i worked there .

All my colleagues very friendly .

I struggled alone at there until today .

I gonna miss all my colleagues and memories there .

Met Lala at cineleisure .

Chilled around there .

After that went home straight .

Thought of meeting boyfriend.

But he didnt reply my messages !

He must be in his own world now ! wth . !

Comfirm wake up laate . -___-

2011-03-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

This is the first picture we took together .

That is on his birthday last year .

Ermm that point of time , we are still friends . Kinda close . haa .

But i cant really remember when i fall for him . hee .

Now , already be my boyfriend . Only gods know how much i love him .

I love him more than i love myself .

He's the best boyfriend i ever got . I swear he wasnt those type

of guy that i knew . He is way too different from others.

Perhaps , thats how i fall for him .

hehehehehehe .

Boyfriend meet me after he finishes work .

He waited for me outside my house . Just right outside my house .

I kinda shocked when i saw him .

I hug him tightly as if we didnt meet for 1 week or so .

He brought for me double cheeseburger . So sweet .

Kinda hungry cause i didnt eat the whole day .

Stomach cramp laaaa... ~

Tomorrow, hopefully nothing failed our plan of spending time together .

imisshim , ilovehim .

Gdnyte all . =))

2011-03-15T17:02:00.002+08:00

I feel so easy without hearing my lil brother

shouting and crying and whatever it is , its so so peace now .

Mum and lil bro went out . Swimming pool . Wow, i got really bad headache .

So i didnt go . Somemore i feel like lazy like that .

I miss boyfriend .

Working and working .

We didnt meet up yesterday . Just messaging .

Hmm , today boyfriend not working mac rider .

Yeahhh !!! I miss him truck loads .

Wanna spent time with him . Grrrr .....

2011-03-14T11:21:00.002+08:00

Hey , Good morning . I wake up damn early today .

Gosh , im still sleepy actually . Haiyaa. .

Yesterday night , was the worst night ever .

I hate people stood me up .

wtf . And i got mad because that irritating girl .

Fcuk you ! I didnt even fcuking care about your life .

You know what ? . You are just making me famous .

Wow , thanks . One day , gods will make you realise .

You aint going better because all you know is fcuking other people life . haa .

Gosh , i pity you la girl . No life .

Dont be busybody laa . Who are you if i werent around ?

Where will you lead if i wasnt there for you all those day ?

You end up like a bitch girl . You end up , at the side road crying for help .

Ass . Go use your brain and think !

One word , LOSER !

2011-03-12T13:11:00.002+08:00

I miss my colleague . Damn . I cant wait to go back to work .

Well , my schedule become more lesser and lesser .

Its getting bored everyday rotting at home .

Gosh , its like im going crazy . !!

But nevermind , i will still try my best looking for jobs

and at the same time , continue working at Pastamania first .

I didnt thought i will last till 1 year plus working at pastamania .

Good ! Thumbs up . =))

Waiting for boyfriend to fetch me .

Going to watch him play soccer . heh .

Afterthat at night as usual , outz with his friend .

Im going to have my lunch first ! toodlesss~

2011-03-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

Everyone change for a reason . Even for a short while

or forever . They must have a reason why they had a sudden change .

But i dont understand , why someone change in a sudden without

realising that the changes hurt the other party .

I didnt know how to let out . Im stressed with everything .

I feel like giving up . I feel like falling .

I feel like shouting ... Haizzz .

There's more to come . I know . I tried to run away ,

but i cant . Its the fact , reality that i have to face .

Nothing hurts more than realising he meant

everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

2011-03-09T14:14:00.002+08:00

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

I wish he were that kind . I wish he wont change his heart .

But it looks like it is . Nevermind . Acceptance is the only way .

Oh god , i feel like crying now .

I miss him , i love him .

Yes i do .

Im ready to just let it go .

If i have too .

I got no mood now . byee

2011-03-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

Time check , 11.43 pm .

Still not asleep . Im working morning shift tomorrow!!

Im dead . But nevermind . Still can wake up .

Im waiting for dearest to call me .

Kind of missing him . But i dont know . Sometimes , i still do

think about last sat . It hurts alot .

We really kind of acting different lately .

I dont know why . Is it me or him ? i dont know .

Went out with family .

Its like ages since i went out with my mum . Goshh , miss those day .

Well , as usual went to woodlands . Eat , then walk around .

Bought kitchen stuff and so on .

I ate something which im not supposed to .

shit . Dearest will be mad at me . For sure .

Now i felt those itchiness . Whole body !

Damn .

Im sleeping alone tonight . Like AGAIN !

fcuk shit laa .

I hate sleeping alone .

Yesterday had a bad dream you know . Wah liao .

I almost cried siaa . Haiyoo .

Nahh , im off noww . toodless~

Shagged

2011-03-06T12:21:00.002+08:00

Im going to get sick soon . Shit . Not again . I hate this .

I dont know whats wrong with me .

Get sick too often . Arggghhhhhhh ....

Bad flu and now cough . Haizz ..

Oh please , i dont want to get sick .

Cause i need to work next week .

Yesterday , went to work . Started working at 12pm .

Doing cashier with Jingwen . Ok , like seriously ,

its been a while i didnt get to work on saturday .

Saturday is the busiest day ever . And i dont know why i like it .

Because it kills time . ! Yeahhh . But tired laa of course .

Shagggggggeeeeeeddddddd siaa when i reach home . Totally shagged .

Felt like sleeping . Somemore thats when my flu started .

I thought it was just a normal flu ...but ....... im wrong .

Went out with dearest . Followed him to his friends block

They planned to do a birthday surprise .

Ok, That was fun .

But i didnt really have mood . Cause of my irritating flu .

Dearest and me got problems . And i hate him for raising his voice at me .

I left him once he sent me home .

I just so fcuked up until now . And i dont bother to talk to him at all .

Even until now . -___-

I hateeeee ittt ok ! Byee

2011-03-04T18:10:00.004+08:00

Im selling my hair straightener at half price . Those who are interested , please add me

at my facebook and contact me through facebook .

Bought it for $160 . But selling it at halfprice . Its still in good condition .

And its professional hair straightener . You can check the brand online .

www.corioliss.com

Here are the pictures .

Resting

2011-03-04T02:47:00.002+08:00

Today was the best day for me and shagged day . duhh~

Working in the morning . Was late for 6 minutes . hehe .

What to do . Take train mahh . Attachment at CPF building with Nabil.

It is my second time going there but first time working there .

Oklahh , its not busy like cineleisure but damn busy from 12 to 2pm .

Oh my god , i was doing support for cashier . Shit , walk here , walk there .

Kanchiong liao . Still i managed to do it .

After that , eat with Nabil and went home together .

Reach homie , use lappy . As usual . Chatted with dearest .

Handphone prepaid low liao . Shit man . No money ! =(

Meet up with dearest . Play badminton with dearest friends.

Ok , that was fun . Long time never play badminton .

Exercise my hand . haha .

Dearest so legong ~ hahaha .

Abit conflict with dearest . But a while only . Just for a while .

Stupid mistake . Just because i want to go toilet , he was like making face . -__-

Fcuk shit man ! But i didnt talk much .

Went to Al-azhar to have our very last dinner . hehe .

Laugh like hell with his friend .

And here i am , at home blogging ... -__-

Tomorrow im off . Resting time . Wont be meeting dearest .

He working in the morning and night . So yah , he will be busy the whole day .

Nevermind , this time , i got to rest . Really got to rest . Saturday have to work liao .

Olahh , off now . Morning have to wake dearest laa .

Nytes2 blogger .

imissmyboyfriend . =))

2011-03-02T13:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it hurts but what to do already happen .

I tried to forget it but i cant . Cause she is my friend since we were primary one.

Only god knows how i feel.

Harassed me at facebook . I cried , but nobody knows how hurt it is .

She say i was her bff . But did she ever there when im in need ? did she ?

No , she didnt there for me . Still i didnt make a fuss about it .

But now , its over . Nahh , its ok .

2011-03-01T11:41:00.003+08:00

Ice limed too/ cooler

spaghettii chicken chop

Stewed beef yunnan noodles

Despite of having family problems , me and sister still went

to eat at streats hong kong located at Bukit Panjang Plaza .

Yes, we have so much fun .

But once reached home , problems came into our mind .

The feeling of scared , feeling of crying , feeling of anger

all put in one .

I dont know how to describe it .

But today , im abit scared to go out because of yesterday incident . haizz .

I have to . Im working today till late night .

Boyfriend wont be fetching me nor sending me .

He working too .

But its ok , hopefully its nothing .

2011-02-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

Ohh , i got some friends which just didnt use her brains .

I didnt know i got a stupid friends .

Didnt dare to talk to me , nahh , its fine .

You know why ? Cause someone like you , i wont entertain .

Wasting my time entertaining fools like you . haa .

Such a fools . You fcuk other people life , i fcuk yours too .

You know , i dont even care to lose friends like you .

I dont need friends who dont dare to talk to me without knowing the truth .

All this are bullshit . Just like you .

You listen to fools , you yourself will be fool .

Attitude problem ? ahhaa . Come talk to me .

You know i hate you so much for believing someone

which already fcuk my life before . tHankssss ...

Its ok , one day when you know the truth ,

you will come to me and beg to me to be friend ,

i will say this ,

Go beg to the god to open your eyes and heart to see which is the truth .

ok bye .

2011-02-27T16:20:00.001+08:00

Well , im fine now . Abit only .

Just finish bathing . hee .

And now , im not sure what am i supposed to do .

Bored till death .

Boyfriend sleeping . duhh~

He's tired . Got back from working this morning .

He wont be meeting me today .

He is going to jb . *sobsob*

I gonna miss him . haiyooo

2011-02-27T13:11:00.003+08:00

When i know everything , i tried to calm myself .

One after another problem came into my life .

One is enough that i cant handle it . And now , came another one .

Wow , what a great friend you are . I just realize you arent worth

being my friend at all . No you arent .

What kind of friend would say bad thing about your own friend . ??

wtf . If you think you are such a good friend , can make up stories just like that .

Why dont i try it at you too ? can i ?

I treasure every friendship since i was with you .

But you make evrything into a mess . Eventhough im not at fault i still do say

sorry to avoid any confusion . There you are still hearing stories .

Nevermind , this time i will just take it as if i dont know . If i know

i will end up like this .. in the first place , i wont want to be your friend at all .

I dont want to be there for you at all . Thanks my dear friend . I just love the way you Fuck

other people life .

Boyfriend love

2011-02-26T11:26:00.003+08:00

Wakey wakey !!! Morning bloggers .

Im awake !! woohoo .

Ok first thing in my mind when i wake up , my boyfriend !

I miss him damn much eventhough yesterday already meet up .

Second thing , stomach pain . -___-'

Haizz , hate this feeling . Mummy prepared slight breakfast for me .

Awwww , ilovemymummy!!

Now got nothing to do ..

Waiting for boyfriend to wake up . -______-

He always wake up late siaaaa!!! haiyoooo ...

Third thing in my mind , im going to bath !!! heh .

Ok byee ! =))

2011-02-25T22:47:00.002+08:00

I didnt go to work just now .

My stomach felt so so pain. After that , it was ok .

Now , the pain is back . Haiyoo .

Stress liao .

Watched ghost movie with sister just now .

Freaking scary siaa . Omg .

I hate that kind of show . Really hate it .

Make me shout like hell . -__-'

Now my mum is watching it . With lil bro .

Ermmm ... i guess i got to go now .

Stomach pain !!!!!

2011-02-25T01:34:00.002+08:00

I just got home from meeting boyfriend .

I swear i love him . Yes , i do . Very very much .

Been going through ups and downs the past two days .

Now we are just fine . Awwww ..Im in love with yanz chupchup!!!

Stomach upset since the last two days .

Not sure why . Cant sleep well , cant eat well .

No appetite . haiyoo .

Tomorrow got to work ...

guess have to force . shit...

im off now .

2011-02-24T03:06:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder , where did it go wrong ?

I dont even understand myself . It hurts to think about

it over and over again . Still , im strong .

I cant forget it . The photos , those thing , its not my type .

Really not mine . Its past , yes i know .

But come to think of it , i will suddenly burst to tears .

I dont know why . I dont wish to let go , cause i treasure , care and love .

But haizzz ... It takes time to forget it .

Boyfriend sleeping . He is working tomorrow . I just

got home from chillingzz . With taman jurong friends n the girls .

Well , i didnt talk much cause i also dont know what to talk about .

Its been a long time didnt chilled with them .

I felt kinda left out . But nevermind .

I got to sleep now.

Tired of working and chillingzz .

Nytess blogger . =))

2011-02-22T21:41:00.003+08:00

Yeahh , i admit i got very bad attitude . Very bad .

So you know me , then what to do . I was raised being like this .

Expect me to do everything that you ask . Im not your maid .!

Sometimes i asked from your help , did you ever there for me ??

Nahh . I did it all alone . So why do i care now ?

Yes , i know its wrong to treat that way .

In the first place , where were you when i was alone , stuck in the dark solving

every problems by myself ... Where were you when i have to struggle alone support

those thing which im not supposed to.

Its all by myself . Haizz .

Irritatingss ~ arghhhh .

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . k bye !

2011-02-22T01:52:00.000+08:00

I love my boyfriend !!! I miss him !!

ok goodnyte ! hahahahahaha

2011-02-21T19:03:00.003+08:00

Im home ! haa . Actually from just now . hee .

Well , went to suntec to go for interview . But haizz...

They told me to apply online . * knock their head *

Irritatingssss..... !! grrrrr....

Nvm . I didnt give up .

Went to wheelock place ...

Wait for call . =(

Not confident enough lehh . Hopefully i get .

But looks like...... a big NO !

Boyfriend working tonight. Will be waiting for him later .

I like .... !!!! Can use the lappy duhh~

Im outzzzz now . toodlesss~

2011-02-20T17:04:00.002+08:00

Still lying down on my bed . with ,my lappy in front of me . ^^

Blogging as usual and fb-ing .

Nothing much to do .

Cough , was fine though .

But it will come back anytime . Stop coughing because i ate the medicine lerr. . -__-

Work , ermmm ..... Long holidays .

Will come back soon .

Boyfriend at home . Not meeting i guess .

But i miss him . =(

2011-02-19T11:18:00.002+08:00

Shit! My cough is back again .

Like seriously , i dont know when its going to be ok .

Haiyooo . Irritating cough ! Please i need to get well soon .

Going back to work larrr ... -___-'

2011-02-18T23:57:00.002+08:00

Boredom strike ! haizzz ..

Boyfriend working , and his handphone batt low !

How do i text him ??!! haiyooo ..

Kinda bored . Cant get to sleep cause of my cough .

Okay , i gonna lose my voice soon .

Stupid sickness. I hate it laaaaaa .....

A moment Like this - Leona lewis

2011-02-18T14:59:00.001+08:00

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me, would you agree?
It's almost that feeling that we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell your love has come here and now

A moment like this, some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this, some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender I can't explain
Well, I may be dreaming but till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever?
And I'll cherish all the love that we share

A moment like this, some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this, some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all?
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
A moment like this

2011-02-18T02:31:00.002+08:00

Love, today is very sweet . He meet up with me abit early then usual .

Went to Bukit Timah to have our dinner .

Hmm , nothing much happen actually .

On the way , suddenly in my mind was like thinking about how we get to know for

the first time .

I thought i was the only one thinking about that .

He is , too ! suprising ! haa .

Chilling under my block , played with lappy .

Playing different kind of games .

We used to when we are still knowing each other .

One of our sweet memories . heeee . ..

Love sent me till the stairs and here i am , at home still blogging . =)

Im off today ! hehehe . Tomorrow too.

Guess wont be meeting love tomorrow .

He working in the morning and at night .

Well , i thought im getting abit better ..

But nahh . Still coughing like hell and this irritating flu ! haiyaaaa ...

I got to sleep now .

Love reminds me not to sleep so late . bubbyee...

nytess all . =))

IM IN LOVE WITH MY BOYFRIEND .

Resting

2011-02-16T10:25:00.002+08:00

Today im not working due to my sickness.
Gosh , im fcuking sick sia .
Fcuking shagged and felt so so weak . haiyaa .
Gone to my family clinic , two times .
And i get many kinds of tablets .
I hate medicines . yuckss !
But because i want to get more better , i have to eat .
If not i get a scolding from my mum and boyfiee .

Yesterday night , meet up with boyfiee for a while .
We didnt stay long because im sick and he is tired too .
He bring me nuggets but i didnt want to eat .
No appetite leiiii ... haiyooo .
stress with this kind of sickness.
Now i wanna have my rest . I need to sleep .
toodless~~

2011-02-15T21:19:00.002+08:00

Im fcuking mad with my step brother . shit shit shit !!

He is fcuking irritating . arghhh hhh !!!

Last time he stole my handphone . Not only mine , even my sister's handphone lost too .

Just imagine how can 2 handphones lost in one house at one time .

Fcuk right. Reported to police but nothing gained .

My step brother didnt want to coorperate . But he is suspicious . wow ...

And now , my internet sim card also lost . aaarghhhhh !! fcuking mad with him .

I was like wondering how can it lost ? when i put at my closet .

haizzz. .. But whatever it is , im going to keep it safe now .

Todayy nothing much . I woke up early .

Knowing that i had asthma , i still went to work .

I didnt want to disappoint my managers . so ya ..

I had fun at work . Like always . My boss , Andy Tan had transferred to other outlet .

Just now is his last day . sad , haiyaa .

I didnt know if my new boss could understand my situation . Let see lorr .

oklahh , wanna have my rest now .

toodless~

2011-02-14T11:58:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was awesome . Went out with boyfiee for one whole day despite being sick .

Well, at least im abit better . Just sore throat . haiyaa .

Boyfiee ask me to tag him to karaoke with his NEA friends .

I didnt sing . One reason .... PAISEHHH !!! hahaha .

And pluss , my throat, its killing me laaa !!

Ended karaoke session at 10 plus .

Headed to marina barrage , fly kite .

Wahhh shioooookkkkk laaa !! haa

I really enjoyed yesterday outing . woohhoo ..

Im off today . Surprised . I didnt know i put off today .

Or maybe they want me to rest .

Yes , i need to rest ! My throat ! arghhhhh ... shit man .

i hate this kind of feeling .

Tomorrow , i will be working bebehh !!

Change schedule with Gwen . So i will be working opening .

Hopefully there's nothing much to do .

errr .. ... got to go .. i wanna rest now .

toodlesss~~

2011-02-13T08:55:00.002+08:00

Wakey wakey...

Today i wake up too early . Maybe because i had a long long rest yesterday .

Yesterday was worst . My whole body was weak .

I just couldn't make myself wake up from bed .

The medicine i took , was too strong . haiyaa .

Now i got veery bad sore throat .

haizzzz!! stress .

I meet up with boyfiee for yesterday.

Just for a while . Under my block .

He knew i was sick . So we didnt really stayed for long .

Somemore boyfiee is damn tired because of his RT .

Err , i got to go . Wanna bath and have my medicine . toodles~

2011-02-12T12:03:00.002+08:00

Im on mc today. haiyaa .

Just got back from clinic with lil bro .

We went in together since both of us sick .

I already message my manager, but didnt reply me .

Hmm , how ahh ? I feel bad lehh .

Cause today is saturday . Comfirm will be busy .

And because of me , they got no enough stuff .

But at the same time , mummy keep nagging at me .

haiyoooo!!!

Boyfriend , working now .

Guess must be busy .

oklahh , take my medicine first and go rest .

Im back ... !!

2011-02-11T21:16:00.002+08:00

Heyy heyy . Im back to bloggging . huhuhuh .

Well , many things to share . But i lazy to write .

Just swit and simple . Heh .

Now im working . Been working there for 1 year plus already .

Didnt expect would stay till that long .

Work environment was fun though .

Lots of new friends and managers .

Eventually im supposed to work today but what to do ...

im sick . haiyaaa ... My whole body felt so weak .

I already eat the medicine and now my hands shivering .

Gonna stop now . toodles ~

New life

2010-01-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

2010-01-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps .
Im bored n so decided to blog .
Well, i have been spending my time
looking for jobs . But
no phone calls sehh .
Haiya . Fated~

errm, i feel like being
single is the best .
No quarrels, no arguments .
Nothing much to expect .
It feels so much better being like this .
Yah, i still feel that hurts .
It just hurt me so much .
But im strong . Haiz

break upss ...

2010-01-05T14:11:00.003+08:00

Well , i got nothing much to blog .
many things happen lately .

Between me and boyfiee, maybe not anymore ..
its over .. he left me on 19 december .
suprised ? me too .
i didnt expect him to turn everything into one big liee..
but im still proud to tell everyone , he is my ex loverr .
My best of the best ex lover .
he gave me love , gave me encouragement .
he was my everything but after he left , im lost .
but i forgive him since the day he left me .
its time for mee to move on .
no turning bacckk !!!
im no going to turn back to my passst .
its definitely over.
i miss him . haizzz...
arghhh ! i have to forget him .
he has a new love .
and i hope her happyy...

im donee peepssss

2009-12-14T14:48:00.003+08:00

Happy Anniversary to me and my Bbyboyy !!haa
3 months passs, and we go through alot things .
I know him for two years already .
He was my ex once and here we are.. together again .
ilovehim, i really do .
we managed to go every single things .
boyfiee is the best la oi ! ahaa .

im working now .
As porter at tan tock sengg .
penatt la sioul . tpi ... ader gaji .. so tkperlaa.
errmmm , klahh..
im done here .
toodlesss !
countdown coming soon ...
enjoyy baybehh !!

2009-11-20T15:41:00.002+08:00

Its so weird that someone and maybe most of them are changing .
Weird sungguh kann .
yahh , i though they would be someone i treasure.
but not anymore.
my world is about my boyfiee and bestie that is baby .
no more enjoying in my dictionaryy.
its time for my future .
stupidd life that some of them go throughh ..

hmmm , i dont know..
lau da berubahh... tetap brubahh ajekkk .
hate those pretendersss...

2009-11-19T15:33:00.002+08:00

Heylo peeps ..
im now at boyfiee house .
Its been two days since we last met and todayy we met again ..
i love him , yes i really do .

jobs ??
my temporary work has ended .
and im looking for one .
tomorrow i got interview bebeh ! ahahah.
happy bangat ... !!!

oklahh peepss ..
got to go ..

2009-11-03T14:02:00.005+08:00

I know i have not been updatingg.

I got too many thing to say todayyy .

and yahh , here it goes .

Good news , im working now.

so i wont be updating or online . or lepaking

with friends .

My working is more important eventhough i struggle it everyday .

Working in a hospital is really sickening !

will face all kinds of patients .

sick patients, patients that is very demanding ! wth .

have to go through it everydayy .

im working as a P.I.A staff .

giving some informations to the patients.
quite interesting , but of course it is a tiring work .
standing all day long , with your mask on.. is like giving me

a hardtime! very hardd!!

Since i work there, i have been going home with all kind of sickness.
fever, flu , cough .

Its normal lahh ..
but mummy feels so akward . haa .

Relationship status ??

It is still going on .

yahh , we fight often . what to do ..

that is coupless lifee ..

boyfiee is busy schooling and working at the same time .

And me , working almost everyday .

We really had a hardtime spending time together .

im disappointed with him actually , but i know , he means it well .

i just love him so muchh .

and i really do .

i know him for 2 yrs pluss alreadyy . so i guess, i have to be more
understanding .

Todayy is boyfiee birthday .

His 19th birthday .

Bby , happy 19th birthday to youu . hope your wishes will come true.

Enjoy your special dayss okayy .

Im sorry if we had to go

through ups and down almost everyday . I promise , i will be more

understanding throughout our relationship from now onwardsss .

Bbyboy, eventhough we didnt spend time on your birthday , but we will ,

soon okayy .

i love you so muchh bby . And i really do .

happiness!

2009-09-22T11:29:00.002+08:00

heylo lovess..
im at boyfiee house now . hahaa.
He is such a pain in the ass !!! always sleep siaaaa!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhh ! fcuking hell .

nothing to blog about !
anywayy , i miss fantastic four and of course my gurlfriends !!
dearest... i miss you guys like hell !!

oklahh .. gtg .
errrr......... SELAMAT HARI RAYAA!!!!

2009-09-07T15:03:00.003+08:00

Hey Lovess,
sorry for not updating . Was quite busy nowadays . haa
Well , what was i doing all this while..
hmm , i was at home .
Spending time with Amirah Auni . I miss her .
We got alot of things to share when i meet her that day .
haa .

Last friday , i meet up with su gurlfie, sent our uniforms back to the office .
wow , pagi sioul kena bangon ! Like wth .
Super duper Ngantok ok !! heh .
Went to jurong point . Do our own things .
And headed home . hahaa .
Yahh , i miss her . i really do .

Yesterday , went out to bugis .
With some friends .
I miss them so much sia .
Have so much fun okayy .
went to kfc and break fast together ..
after that , went to seesha ..
Best oi ~
i was having fun siaa .
On the way home , some ass like wth .
i hate him siakk !
He was drunk, and he took pictures of me standing at one side .
ass sia !
Luckily , friend notice it and tell me .
kind of fcuked up with that ass sia .
And not only me that he took pictures , even other girls
was his victim . ass ! retarded guyy !! arghhhh ! hate him siakk ..
I drop off at jurong east .. and change train like always .
Luckily , that ass didnt drop off at jurong east . errrrr!!

Some good news and bad newss ...
hmm , good news is .. he has been discharged .
Arghhh ! im happy for him .
He will pull through . i know he will .
Bad news... err.. we are drifting .
so i guess.. nothing to talk about .
Its just that , i hope he will find his happiness soon .
And im sure he will be fine out there .
well , i think , i have to let go those feelings . haa
Fated~

right now, im busy with my own things .
so i gonna be very very busy .
Busy with familys ..
of course . hahaa .
Been in a hard time thiking about it ..
i dont know whom to share with . so i guess..
i would rather be alone .
oklahh peeps .
im off now .
toodles~

Im 5 months single peepss !!!

2009-08-22T14:04:00.002+08:00

Im effing bored right now.
There was nothing i could do at home , so i thought of blogging .
Hmm , im still stuck im time at homee !!!
Only last thursday that i went out .

Last thursday , went to to hopsital with su gurlfie .
I miss her damn lots , yes i do .
Waited for her at j.e .
Standard jugakk , i have to wait for her like again !
But im very patience la kan . heh .
She got alot of things to say . so do i .
Exchange stories. But i dont have many stories to share , cause
i was at home everyday . How to ? haaa .
Back to the trip .
We went to visit him .
Waited for his friend. We didnt talk alot .
Maybe long time didnt meet up ,so dont know how to start the conversation .
But he is getting better .
Im relieved now that i visit him already .
Todayy , he will be going for the operation .
I hope everything will run smoothly .
He will pull himself , i trust him .

Anywayy, happy 22nd birthday to my dearest sister .
That is Fadillah ! My first sis .
I love her, yes i do .
Eventhough i didnt really feel the love , but i still love her .
she must very happy on her special dayy .

Okayy , boredom ! nothing to blog about .
im done here peeps .
Selamat Berpuase sumuaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-19T19:00:00.005+08:00

What a life.
Lately , been spending time at home .
Kind of lonely but to no avail , at home was more fun of all .
Eventhough lately , there's some pretenders around me .
What to do , FATED la kan .

Its such a long time since i spent time with gurlfriends .
I dont know why .
And definitely , i dont have the reasons .
Maybe i do , but lets just sealed it . haa .
Actually , im down with people around me.
This few days i have been cooped up at home trying hard to
let it go . But seriously i cant .
The most part of it , it came inside my dreams.
why of all me ? i dont have the answer .
i feel like pulling us apart .
my fault ? i dont know . haiz .
Pretenders around huh .
keep on lying . i will wait till the truth revealed .
Maybe im wrong , but soon it will be just fine .

I changed , yes i do .
Like seriously , my family meant more than anything else.
Eventhough they dont understand parts and parcels of my life .
Eventhough they dont know what really kept inside my heart,
i feel more secure being with them .
Especially mummy .
Thanks to god, that i realise everything.
Sometimes, somethings are better left unsaid .
Actually , i feel more happy when i have someone who loves me .
That will be just my family and of course my biological dad .
i begin to appreciate more .
drop the topic babe .
Mummy been feeling so sick this few days .
i kind of worried .
She told me this ...

Mama : kalau mama masok hospital , sape nak pegi jaga adik kau ? mama nye penyakit
da makin teruk . haizz .

silence is what i can do . My tears flowing .
im scared im losing her . im scared im not able to pull myself up
if i lose her . i love her alots . i didnt want to disappoint her and that is why ,
i tried to change for the better . i hope i did .

sometimes , i realise im such a failure.
i dont know what wrongs that i did, that everybody around me
are getting far apart .
i just hate it .

nevermind , im done here .
toodless~

2009-08-05T17:24:00.004+08:00

Heylo peeps .
Been busy with many things .
First and foremost... Todayy is a very special dayy .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUHAILA SAYANG !
At last you reach your 18th birthday .
i miss you damn much gurlfie !
Hope your wishes come true aite .
Last long with apohh and be happy on your very special dayy !
Im so so sorry, i didnt make it to meet up with you .
You know i didnt mean it . I was having a bit difficulty about money.
Yahh , im sorry babe . Meet up soon okayy .
I promise you .

Many many things happen lately .
I have been staying at home for almost 2 weeks !
shocked ? haa .
Im down with high fever.
Went to polyclinic alone .
Im abit down because of myself .
I dissapointed with myself cause i cant even take care
of my ownself .
High fever, cough, flu and like wth..
Its killing me okayy !
But now , here i am ... im getting much better .
Left with a slight cough .
Mummy was so worried about me when im sick . iloveher !
She kept calling me when i was out with cuzzie .
We went out to kfc at jurong swimming complex .
Saw friends . Yahh , many of them .

Anywayy, bad news .
Someone i cared , someone i adored so much met with accident
on sunday night .
Actually he and his friend was supposed to meet me on that night .
i was waiting, and suddenly received messages telling me that he met with accident.
i cried . my tears went down through my cheeks .
Like seriously, i kept crying like hell .
i dont know why .
Mood changes .
Monday , i was down .
No mood .
i kept thinking about him .
i was wondering how is he ? is he fine ? has he wake up ?
those question kept playing in my mind .
i cant concentrate on anything .
i was like , lying down all the time .
crying and thinking about those day he make me smile .
Those day he meet me and how we first met .
Those day when i see he laugh.
haiya, every single thing about him make me cry .
His brother called me and tell me about him .
Yahh , i turn out to be more sadder then ever.
But after knowing from his friend that he is fine , he has wake up .
He will be recovering soon .
Im relieved!
So much relieved .
But still i cried .
At one time, i ask myself .. why did i cried ?
i should be happy that he has wake up .
Should be happy he is fine and will soon recover .
I dont know why .
i still cant answer why .
And ohh , i do miss him badly .
i promise myself , i will wait till he recovers .
wait till i see his smile and laughter and then ....
i will lead my own life .

i thought i met the right person for me to share my feelings.
i thought i met someone who would be there for me during my ups and downs .
i thought he was the one that gonna make me happy in all my life .
i was super duper wrongg .
my heart cried .
really , i just dissapointed with him .
Just todayy , i realised i have been living in my dreams .
im so stupid !
i guess its fated for me .
thanks for everything .

am i supposed to hate guyss or love ?

2009-07-24T16:38:00.003+08:00

Heyy ... Im back .
Currently at friend cribs .
Many thing happen lately .
Too many things to update . So gonna make it short .
Well , im gonna be working soon . Very very soon .
So gonna be busy for quite sometime .
No more lepaking or hanging arounds.. haha .
Just to update about my relationship status with legong boii.
We have ended !
No more friendship or whatever relationship we have all this while .
I dont care about him nor do i still love him .
His fcuking attitude is driving me crazyy..
And , i guess im happy with this single life eventhough i feel abit lonely sometimess.
Legong boii that was referring all this while was my ex boyfiee .
You guyss should know who he is .
Whatever it is, im done with him . haa .

Lately been making some new friends.
Yahh , they are a great friend .
Im happy .
Though , he was one of my crushh . haa .
crush only, not more .
Nothing to talk about him la kan .

Err, i met someone whom i waited for almost 3 years at bp .
I was walking around and coincidentally saw him with his camp mate.
He was my ex .
I was very happy when i saw him .
He's abit change .
His looks and appearance all . haa .
But that doesnt mean that i gonna love him like i used to .
Okayy , Gonna reach my 4 months single very soon .
Cant wait . Really !
Im not like legongg boii that choose a person blindly . haa .
Go to hell with him okayy ! I hate him ! I really do .
He just cant see me leading my happy life .
Okayy , he is so like * whatever *

Those who have deleted my blog , please relink aite !
Im done here . So takecare ~
Update ya soon !

2009-06-12T08:32:00.002+08:00

Ok people ! Im back !
Sorry for not updating and well , i was not
in the mood to continue blogging.
But after much thinking, decided to continue blogging.
duhh ! haa .
Well , many things happen and guess, should let it go .
I have been at home for five days ! Tak caya kan ?
Itulahh idah bby siouL . heh .
Been meeting some friends at my homeplace.
Rather bored okayy.
But after days that i have been staying at home,
i find it rather comfort.
Feel more relaxed .
I could easily forget about everything ! haa.
Tagboard, kecohh ! Jadi deleted due to someone stupid actionss!
Sumpahh die bodohh nak mamposs ! haa.
Drop the topic arhhhh....

Yesterdayy, meet gurlfriends.
Lepakk ! Im so so missing them .
Its been a week that i didnt met them .
As usual nothing muchh we did.
Like always la kannn ...
Something happen yesterday .
Not about us but about me and that stupidd legong boii!
Should i call him legong or rather.. something else??? haa.
Dont care la about his nick .
Guess, sooner everyone will know who's this guyy !

Yeah , i was damn mad with eu !
I hate eu so muchh for putting those faults at me.
Oh god, im scared?? nahh .
Im not at all scared . But let me tell eu thiss stupid
legong boii , i will definitely let eu go .
Its not me that gonna do back to eu .
But others, sooner eu will get what i feel all this while.
Im such a forgiving person .
I can forgive and forget everything.
Duhh! But im not going to forget what eu told me yesterday,
Not even a single words !
even if i forgive eu , my heart will not even let eu be my friends.
arhhh, i hate eu so muchh !
dont eu think that i kept many secrets about eu ?haa.
sooner or later, people will know what kind of person are eu..
No wonder all ur friends left eu . haa.
stupid boyy ! i hate eu okayy !

2009-06-07T14:14:00.002+08:00

Please , get lost from my fcuking life !
I just want to be alone !
i wanna get out from this house soon .
I will stay with my first sis and start a new life .
No more internet , no more blogging , no more hanky panky. !
Ok shut ! I just need to change my whole life
and start to be independent !
I dont care if i lose such a person like ahzan !
He better get lost from my sight !
I hate all those people !
I hate my step dad ! I hate everybody that linking to me .
Yeah , hurt over and over again .
Fcuking life ! i hate this life !

Yesterday was out meet Baby and mag !
I went out meet baby at chinese garden .
Headed to senior citizen , that was the place that we lepak .
Then accompany her to her house.
Ok like wth !
her mother was like... awwwwhh, i cant say anything .
Speechless. stupid people ! Gat a life ! haa.
Then proceed to taman jurong .
Was supposed to meet mag at jurong point at 5pm sharp .
But at 4 Pluss he then message me , he just wanted to bath .
Pantat ! So we headed to taman jurong first .
Teman baby do her things .
And off to Jurong Point .
Ok , aku ngan mag penipu nak mampos !
When i just took the bus , he message me telling me that he gonna
reach Jrg Pt .
i told him that i gonna reach too .
Check2 kite dua naek same bus !
Kimakk , dua2 muke penipu sioul . haa .
Baby laugh like hell when she saw mag was in the same bus .
Cume he didnt saw us .
Followed him until the toilet , then waited for him .
We went to lepak near blaze nye block .
Laugh , share .. and especially with baby peh belo . haa .
Receive miss kol from that stupid bodohh !
Kimakk , bikin aku saket hati jek .
Gadoh ..... Drag la sampai biler2 ..
Bab aku da malas ngn jantann ! haa .
Get lost la fcuker ! Ok bye ! No mood for now..

2009-06-06T13:26:00.002+08:00

Its been 4 months i know you .
And that 4 months is the time that i waited
for you, i sacrifices everything .
I tried to be strong seeing you with another girl .
Nevertheless, im still here waiting for you
till you came back into my life.
I dont know for how long , i dont know,
till when you gonna change yourself.
You told me to wait for you .
You told me you will get back to me one day .
I did . I waited but i just cant take it anymore.
Enough is enough .
One guy after one guy hurt me so muchh .
Why me that you chose to get hurt. ? whyyy???
We go through ups and downs together.
Settle everything, be it smoothly or harsh ..
we still stand still to be the best in our friendship .
I ask you one last time last thurs night , you still wanted me to wait
or just be friends forever without any relationship between us..
You told me to wait . Still , i waited .
But yesterday i just realise , everything has to be ended .
I cant take it anymore.
Its enough . I cant go on with this kind of life .
I must move on .
I know deep down inside your heart, you dont love me .
You are just using me .
Thats the greatest mistake i ever make by waiting for you.
I neglected everything just for you.
But what did i get ... hurt over and over again.
Thankss for everything .
I will miss everything that spent with you and your family .
Its the best thing that i ever had in my life.
I promise you, those love are not going to be erase .
But i will have to move on . Thanks alot .

2009-06-05T15:33:00.001+08:00

Hate me for all eu can suckerss !

i dont give a damn ! wth .

2009-06-05T15:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , went out to esplanade like i said .
Went for the interview .
With kak nadiah and sis tag along .
Accompany me . haa !
I was damn nervous . DUHH !
It was like me alone siakk interview .
Sape tak nervous ooi !
I was confident, and i really really feel that i could
get that job .
They told me to wait for their call .
And i was like * hampa * sioul .
Tu comfirm2 tak dapat la kan !
Comfirm + confident siakk !
Haiyo !

After that , kak nadiah and sis went for their interview
at clarke quay while me straight to tiong bahru .
Meet ahzan ! He keep on messaging and calling me
like many times while i was having my interview .
WTH ~ taktahu sabar per ! heh .
Meet him at his house .
His mummy and adiks are all out .
So left me and him .
Watch tv , cite istri untuk suamiku .
He get himself change .
Die peh baju sikit peh lawa !
Aku yang kene gosokkan ! Bodo peh babi ! haa .
We got nothing to do , went out buy cigarretes .
Sit under his block thinking of going to somewhere .
Laugh like hell with lame jokes ! haa .
i miss those day la kan !
Dudok bawah block sampai nak dekat mahgrib .
And until his mummy and others came back home .
His mummy ask me to sit inside his house like again .
So i did.
His mummy know me long time already so ok go jek la kan !
He showed his pictures when he was stil a little boyy .
His adik all bergurau with me .
Cute tau dorang sume .
At 8.30 , all of us watch ninja warrior !
That stupid tv shows . heh .
Until 9.00 pm like that me and his family went to vivo .
Jalan-jalan and went to eat at long john silver .
Gerek jugak la kan . But cannot smoke sioul ! haizz. .
Stress ! hahahhaa .
Night, plan to ton at kak radi house that is ahzan's sister.
So his sister boyfriend fetch us at harbourfront .
sitted behind at the van laugh out loud with ahzan
stupid nonsense ! haa .
Before we sleep , talk about our future .
I almost cried .
I tried to tahan my tears la kan .
We laugh, we flash back our old memories .
It was like so sweet .
I miss it . I really do .

Gurlfriends is acting differently nowadays .
All of us did our own things .
Dont know why .
We didnt quarrel but its just that each one of us
is busy with our own things .
takperrla .. Aku da biase !

2009-06-04T13:00:00.002+08:00

Ok ! im bored to death ! haa .

Yesterday i reached home early then before.

Went out meet gurlfriends and apoh !

He has to leave us . haiyo !

gonna miss this good friend la kan .

Alah, pegi untuk 2 minggu jek .

Nanti weekends boleh jumpe ehk su ! haa .

Dont be sad ok su gurlfie .

Aku ade, boleh teman kau . heh .

Back to the story .

Apoh wanted to go out yesterday so we left early .

i reached home at about 9.00 Pluss !

Early right ?? hahahaha . !

Reach home , watch television.

Eat my fried chicken wings and so on..

At 11 Pluss, i fell asleep .

Around 1 pluss receive call from him !

Yeah , that lover boyy . heh.

I cant picked up his call due to my prepaid low .

so i just miss call him back . hahaha .

Stupid him ! malas aku nak layan kan .

Terus aku tido alek . heh .

Todayy i got work interview at esplanade !

Will be going alone sehh later .

Then meet my precious gurlfriends .

Tak sabar la nak keje !!! hahahaha .

Hopefully i will get selected for this work . haa .

2009-06-03T15:28:00.003+08:00

I just wake up ! haa
from my sleeping beauty .
well , as usual, i ton !
At baby ilah cribs.
So damn tired siakk yesterdayy .heh .
Many things happen.
I guess i wont be posting about that .

I dont know why this few days,
Im getting more and more emotional .
i get carried away with my own feelings .
Im scared , i feel that im at lost now.
haizz.. many things happen this few dayss.
And again, i just cant stop thinking about it.
im scared im losing him soon !
Yeah, very very soon !
i can feel it.
Its not so easy to let it go just like that .
I cried when i wake up yesterday morning .
I dream about it almost everydayy .
he left me in my dream .
ohh god, i just cant imagine it .
i missing him now . Miss him so so damn muchh !
days passes, and i knew him very very well already .
arghhh, feel so lost .
Sometimes, i feel that he was just playing with my feelings .
Again ! I dont want it to happen lar kan .
Many things happen already in my love life.
is he a sweet talker ? haizz.. i dont know.

2009-06-02T10:30:00.002+08:00

Im bored, so decided to blog . haa.
Yesterday after blogging, went to cook something
for me to eat . haa. lapar sioul !
Mummy didnt left me some food to eat .
So i cook myself la kan . * duhh *
Watch television alone . Bored you know~
Faeza gurlfie called me at night .
Sebok jek tau pompan ni !
I was concentrating watching television siakk !!
She was still lepak at bukit batok !
Wth. Taktahu nak balek siak ni pompan !
Padahal dia skola sioul ! kecoh uh lu minahh ! haa.
Her voice was like not clear.
She got irritated and out down the phone .
Continue message with me. haa .
Itu pon, i was just get ready to sleep .
I switched off my handphone due to some reason .
When i wake up early morning .
Switched on my handphone, receive many messages . haa
one of the message, i dont know from who .
Unknown number la oi ! haa.
Stupid , message me asking whether im asleep !
Who the hell is that people ? heh .

Im hungry right now.
Ouh ya, today is my special dayy.
Actually not really special for me .heh .
But usually, im happy when it comes to this part .
haa. LAME !
Only gurlfriends know. heh .
Anywayy , im hungry !
Nak makan !

shagged !

2009-06-01T23:30:00.002+08:00

I just got back home .
Met su gurlfie just now . standard la kan.
Didnt do much talkings just now.
Mood swing sioul. Dont know why .
Am i supposed to think about it everyday ?
Its killing me like seriously .

Im feeling so shagged right now.
Headached sioul and slight cough .
Its a bad cough la kan actually.
But i ate my medicine alreadyy !
So ok ok baby la kan skarangg. haa.
No plans for tomorrow.
Ouh, there is!
Accompany su gurlfie !
But im not comfirm if i go .
50-50 arhhhh.....
Looks like im getting fever soon .
This headached is killing me.
Fcuk lar ! i need to rest now.
Bubbye !

2009-06-01T08:42:00.006+08:00

To Muhammad Azri Bin Tahar ..

Happy 20th birthday to you.

And at last you turned 20 just todayy !

I still remember everything that happened between us .

Eventhough you left me without a reason,

im still here wishing you with my sincere heart .

I hope you realise after

doing all those stupid things.

You have to change ! Really !

Im looking forward to see you change with a better future.

Anywayy, last long with whoever you with now.

Im happy for you my dear azri casper..

Takecaress ... toodless ~

I wished him at 12 am , but he didnt reply.

Its ok . Im not offended . I know he wont reply any

of my messages . I dont know why and dont wish to know.

Ermm , yesterday met gurlfriends at Jurong Nti .

Meet su gurlfie under her block then headed to faeza gurlfie cribs .

Macam biasa jugak , sebok dengan lappy dorang .

Of course im curious to check my tagged and blog all . haa .

Skali skala la kann ! soon, i will not be updating like im used to !

Kimakk , sedihh perrr.... haizz..

But its ok . Its not the end of my life ! haa .

Im talking craps now because im too sleepy la kan.

I was from baby ilah cribs.

Not really her cribs , but i hang around near her house with her friends .

And of course her friends are my friends too .

Its just that , they are juniors hong kah lite ! haa .

Nevermind, da biasa la kan ! Talk craps with Taufikk !

My so called closed friends. heh .

He's fun you know ! haa . Tak tido sioul !

Yang lain sume da kene tembak ! Cakap jek ton !

Tapi sume tido .. aperda ... Tak guna uhh! haa

I miss my fantastic four ,

and of course not to forget the OD hunks ! haa .

I miss them like hell . Really !

I want to meet them badly sehh .

Miss those day that i spent with them .

Memories are everywhere. Miss my school life .

I wished i could turn back time !

Gosshhh , i wonder what are they doing now..

I know khairi is still schooling .

Higher nitec sioul .

Sports management lagikk ! Good job la kan !

Akid is waiting for ns .

Ijam, not sure..

As for my three pretty gfs, or so called my fantastic four ,

i guess they are working now.

hmm , missing them like seriously .

I want to meet them sia..

I want those outing again !

Especially, the fantastic four .

Guess whatt, our class photo , there's no picture of us sehh .

The fantastic four didnt come to school on that dayy .

Haa, macam siakk kan kite ! hahahaaa..

can i have my school life bacck ? im missing it now !!!!

countdown !

2009-05-30T10:39:00.002+08:00

I was out yesterday . With friends .
Something happen . Eu know i know gurlfriends. haha .
Night , met gurlfriends somewhere !
Sorry for making you girls waited for such a long time.
Not my fault ! tu uhh.. si kitty,
bobal bobal, tak ingat time sioul !
But overall, it was ok la .
I didnt talk much with gurlfriends.
Kepala berat nak mamposs !
Gurlfriends took cab home while me took the train home .
I was alone in the train sleeping like nobody else.
Reach home about 12 Pluss am and eat something to
make my stomach full .
Then off to sleep ! haa .

No more free incoming . !
Prepaid low la sehh .
Left with only $1.00 Pluss . heh .
So please no calls ! Favour uh kk !
Today , is 30th May 2009 .
Its my 2 month single oi !haa .
Baek per idah bby ! heh .
Faeza gurlfie, remember what you said the other time,
you want to beat my single dayss right ? haa.
Let see how it goes kayyy ... syg kauu !

Su gurlfie demam sehh .
Get well soon dear ! syg kau jugakk kayy !
nothing to blog about .
Like seriously im bored to death . heh .

Whats the plan for todayy ???
Well, no more outing to city hall or whatever..
Todayy watching kuda kepang !
Ok lahh peeps .
Nak makan oi !
toodless ~

2009-05-29T09:03:00.000+08:00

Morning peeps ! Im back home . haa
Standard, yesterday i ton like again !
No,no not from su gurlfie House .
But this time i was from BaBy iLah house.
My dearest besty . Goshhh, i miss her like hell okayy !

Yesterday after chatting with my irritating Faeza gurlfie,
i went to sleep . She kept asking me to come over to
their lepaking place . irritating siakk !haa . FAKE !
Then i texted su gurlfie . Asking her whether she will
be going out cause i thought of meeting her .
Macam biasa jugak . heh .
But dia pon same jugakk ! IRRITATING ! haa.
Asking me to come over to their place!
Walauweyy , kecoh nie pompan oi . haiyoo....
Reach at about 4 Pluss.. meet faeza gurlfie at her house .
Then meet up with su gurlfie.
We really had so much fun .
Laughing like hell .
Took pictures through webcam !
Stupid faces ! haa.
I swear, funny sioul ! hahhhahah
And not to forget, we kept CHANGING places siakk !
From one place to another .
Wahh, wa penat sioul ! =D
Lepak till 9 Pluss . Texted baby ilah .
Meet her at Block angin . somewhere you guys shouldnt know!haa
Hmm..khai, syuk , boboi,megat,taufik and baby was there .
Long time didnt meet up with them .
Too many stories! haa .
Gerek la kan .
After which i went to Senior Citizen lepaking with others
Hong Kah lite peers . Cheyy , hong kah lite kapee??? haa
Alah, sume maseh junior lagik. haa .
Talk about our past at hong kah secondary with the juniors.haha.
Lepak till 4 pluss am .
Came a topic about east coast park thingy !
And that happen last Year 2008 June 14!
Gfs, remember those day ? haa
I know you dont .
That day was the day that we celebrated my advance b'day!
With the taman jurong guyss and others .
Reflecting about su gurlfie when dia da mabok !
Kekek sioul . I still remember everything .
especially the part when kym took care of me. haa
Touching uhh part tu la kan ! hhahaah . FAKE !
Wished we could have another one .
But maybe on my b'day itself ?
Kite enjoy pa? haa . I cant wait la kan !
After chatting for a long time, went back to baby ila house .
Sleep for a while .
At 7 am sharp , went home !
Swear , im sleepy and hungry siakk ! haa .

2009-05-28T10:52:00.004+08:00

HeyLo peeps!
Im back home from my brother school !
There is a meet the parents session just now.
And i have to go cause mummy didnt understand english much.
Furthermore, mummy cant speak good english .
Brother results was damn terukk !
For k2, of course they dont have exams .
but all his homeworks was like a mess ! haizz..
Aperla adik aku nie ! sungguh stupidd ! haa .

I woke up at 7 Pluss in the morning just now.
My little brother has meet the parent session too .
Im supposed to go , but lazy la deyy !
Pagi sioul ! Wake up, watch television .
Off back to sleep .
I got bad dreams ! arghhh ! fcuk !
Luckily i was awaken because of my message from daddy .
Then i realise it was all a dream .
Nasib mimpi sioul ! Lau tidak ,
Menangis macam budak bodoh ! hahaha .

Yesterdayy, i didnt went out for one whole dayy .
Stayed at home .
Good girl sioul . Just for yesterdayy .
Maybe todayy pon good girl agaknye .
No plan la sehh !
Hmm, what was i doing yesterday .
Chatted with bellafeat and mr pagyn at msn .
haha . Mr pagyn sioul ! My new friend ! haa !
Ok, die giler skit !haa .
After that , went back to sleep .
At 7.30pm, wake up and watch my favourite tv shows .
Until 10.30pm .. terus tido balek ! haa.
Tired la kan .
Padahal tak kluar sehh ! haizz..
Hmm , at 1 pluss am , receive a call from private number.
At first i didnt want to pick up ..
scared someone wanna talk for long with me.
But then , i just pick up .
Kakak aku rupenye ! My first sis . haa .
She called me asking for my tagged password and email address.
So if anybody saw me online yesterday night,
it was not me ! My first sis la kan ! haa .
I realise i got 3 unread message .
From , Bo.. friend and iskandar, that irritating boyy !!
Iskandar ader hati nak ajak aku lepak pagi-pagi buta !
I hate him so much la kan .
I told him many times that im attached !
Maseh nak kacau-kacau aku .
Why im attached ? haa
Who's that lucky boyy ? hahaha .
Actually takder la kan.
Step ader mataer jek .
Cause he keep pestering to meet me since last year sakk !
Haiyo , tak give up nie . Babi btol !

Well, i miss su and Faeza gurlfie .
i cried reading su gurlfie blogs yesterday .
Dont know why .
I just miss them so much eventhough
i didnt meet them for one dayy ! haa .
Itulah namanya friendship yang takkan putus !
haa . Macam paham siakk !
No plans for todayy ! Boring sioul dudok umahh !
haa . soon i will not be update like im used to .
Mummy wanna cut my internet connection soon .
Financial la kan .
Goshhh , i miss blogging for sure..